The Principle of Equiality

If you cannot accomplish something that you've requested for a person to accomplish,

Then, you have no right to make that request.

Pathetic, ignorant, retarded, fools.

You'd all expect me to do something that I dare not imagine.

Opening up they say, pfft.

Then why don't you people try it hmm?

You people have never gotten rejected straight,

Or being told that you're not worthy to exist in this world,

Or have you very dignity and pride shattered before your very eyes.

So, you have no right to judge or tell me how I should open up.

Whatever pretty words your mouths continue to spout on and on about "opening up",

I'm certainly not taking it.

You'd think that after all this rejection by people, I'd still trust people with my heart?

First of all, why should I even open up?

For me to get insulted again?

For me to get rejected again?

For me to get hurt again?

For me to experience pain again?

For my pride and dignity to be assaulted again?

For me to experience the black black despair of my past again?

Or...

Does it amuse you people to see me living a miserable life.

I did give your advises a thought.

But...

I think it makes no sense.

Plain rubbish.

You people don't know what's it like to be me.

So please shut up and seal your mouths on the comments regarding my "opening up".

Secondly,

Do you people realize something?

Oh right, I'M NOT LIKE YOU PEOPLE!

People like me do not have the right to open up to people, if you've already noticed.

The more I try, the more miserable my life gets.

You people have at least a 10% chance of surviving in the midst of people,

But what about me?

I can't even get the 1% of attention that I'm begging for right now!

If you people haven't noticed and are wanting to correct me after you see this,

Please note that the world is a very REALISTIC place,

Definitely not a place for the likes of me.

So you highly chanced people should realize this:

People like me don't really belong in a society like this.

So, if you have yet to experience what I have,

Please shut up and stop trying to get me to make ANY freaking changes on my attitude.

It may bring me many disadvantages but,

That's how I plan to live as.

A person who can overcome everything despite the disadvantages of his/her environment.

Even if I have to drag my legs along,

Even if I have to sit up and lick my open wounds,

Even if my heart gets torn into many little pieces,

I will find a way to keep moving.

I'll lick my own wounds,

I'll drag my scarred feet along,

I sew my heart back together, bit by bit.

Whether I stand or fall, I go it alone.

I really dislike teamwork or any other form of collaboration with others.

If there is no actual need for it, then I will do my best to avoid it.

I like doing work/things solo, especially jobs/assignments given to me.

Being a team player is not my forte.

It really pleases me to see everyone communicating with each other but...

At the same time, pains me as well.

Because...

I'm the only one whose getting ignored and left all alone.

So, it makes no difference being in a team or doing it all by myself.

Because at the end of the day, the only one who will be at my back will be just me.

The only person who will help me up when I fall,

The only person who will help me mend my wounds,

The only person who will keep my heart in one piece,

Is just me, and me alone.

No one is going to catch me when I fall...

I'm was/always the last one picked for anything...

Was and always will be.

But, Im really hoping to change that freaking statement,

Not by opening the heart, but by using tactics and planning.

And oh,

I don't smile when there's no reason to smile.

It's annoying and fake at the same time.

Accept me for who I am or just disappear from my life.