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Tuesday, December 31, 2013

My Overview Personality: Truly Accurate!

Used a fake name for this test :P

Results:


1.You are poised, confident, and clear-thinking when stressed, however you tend to lack energy and have difficult initiating activities. People generally perceive you as distant and reserved, and you do not usually reach out to others. You tend not to express your emotions openly and are sometimes not even aware of your own feelings. You do not like to claim that you are better than other people, and generally shy from talking yourself up, however you believe that a certain amount of deception in social relationships is necessary. You are guarded in new relationships and less willing to openly reveal the whole truth about yourself.
You take your time when making decisions and will deliberate on all the possible consequences and alternatives.

2. You feel tense, jittery, and nervous and often feel like something dangerous is about to happen. You may be afraid of specific situations or be just generally fearful. You feel enraged when things do not go your way. You are sensitive about being treated fairly and feel resentful and bitter if you think you are being cheated. You tend to lack energy and have difficult initiating activities. You are sensitive about what others think of you. Your concern about rejection and ridicule cause you to feel shy and uncomfortable around others. You are easily embarrassed and often feel ashamed. Your fears that others will criticize or make fun of you are exaggerated and unrealistic, but your awkwardness and discomfort may make these fears a self-fulfilling prophecy. You do not experience strong, irresistible cravings and consequently do not find yourself tempted to overindulge. You are poised, confident, and clear-thinking when stressed.

3.People generally perceive you as distant and reserved, and you do not usually reach out to others. You tend to feel overwhelmed by, and therefore actively avoid, large crowds. You often need privacy and time for yourself. You like to speak out, take charge, and direct the activities of others. You are usually the leader in group activities. You lead a moderately paced life. You like some energetic activities, but also like to relax and take it easy. You enjoy some excitment and risk taking in your life. You are not prone to spells of energetic high spirits.

4.You are a moderately imaginative person who enjoys a good balance between the real world and fantasy. You love beauty, both in art and in nature. Sometimes you become easily involved and absorbed in artistic and natural events. You tend not to express your emotions openly and are sometimes not even aware of your own feelings. Familiar routines are good, but sometimes you like to spice up your life with a bit of adventure or activity. You enjoy a certain amount of debate or intellectual thought, but sometimes get bored with too much. You like the security of tradition, but sometimes have a desire to bend the rules and challenge conventional thinking.

5.You generally see others as selfish, devious, and sometimes potentially dangerous. You believe that a certain amount of deception in social relationships is necessary. You are guarded in new relationships and less willing to openly reveal the whole truth about yourself. You do not particularly like helping other people. Requests for help feel like an imposition on your time. You do not enjoy confrontation, but you will stand up for yourself or push your point if you feel it is important. You do not like to claim that you are better than other people, and generally shy from talking yourself up. You are not affected strongly by human suffering, priding yourself on making objective judgements based on reason. You are more concerned with truth and impartial justice than with mercy.

6.Often you do not feel effective, and may have a sense that you are not in control of your life. In general you tend to be disorganized and scattered. You find contracts, rules, and regulations overly confining and are sometimes seen as unreliable or even irresponsible by others. You are content to get by with a minimal amount of work, and might be seen by others as lazy. You have strong will-power and are able to overcome your reluctance to begin tasks. You are able to stay on track despite distractions. You take your time when making decisions and will deliberate on all the possible consequences and alternatives.

My overall chart of my brain -.- 

Hate to admit it but..

Here it is 

Monday, December 30, 2013

New Year's Resolutions:Bye Bye Year 2013

Wanted to give my dear blog an update before 2013 ends.


So...

2013's last Tuesday huh?

I have totally no idea on what to say actually ☺

2013 has been a very very very busy year for me.

Especially so because I've been at war with the exams a.k.a the SPM.

Also,

I've planned a Graduation Dinner along with my fellow partners.

Besides that,

I've also gone to the Comic Fiesta, which is a convention held at Suria KLCC ☻

This year was filled with many many things,

Conflicts, dilemma, and confusion.

I'm still confused on how the human thinking actually works.

During the dinner project,

I found that, people in  team have many ideas and point of views.

Those ideas tend to break apart and separate if  either party is not at a mutual agreement.

What I discovered is that to fully apply teamwork,

One team must always utilize and try their best to fit all the ideas in one big plan.

But still teamwork in that project didn't appeal to me much.

We did not really make the cut, nor did we get the numbers right.

This proves that: we must always plan for the worst, not the best.

Next up, went shopping last Sunday.

Got some new clothing items that I've never actually fancied during my pre-teens

Well, people have to change right?

My resolutions are not quite clear yet but one thing is sure:

I'll protect my pride, honor and dignity with all my strength, even if it costs me my mentality.

Pride, honor, respect, trust, dignity....

All of these are what I'm after even after all the years.

I want people to respect me as a person,

I want to protect my pride as a person,

I want my honor to remain intact with me,

I want to try to trust someone.

And maybe someday, I'll learn to forge bonds with a person.

Bonds are certainly hard to form and must be handled with extreme care.


Mainly, Id like to make my New Year a blast!

I'm not really an expert when it comes to socializing with people,

I'm a mild introvert maybe?

I'm not entirely sure on that matter though ☺

I think I should be more outgoing in the new year?

Hmm...

I'll give that a thought (maybe *smirks*)

I'm also on the path of attending my driving class on January 2014!

Excited as this is the first and last time I'll go to driving school XDD

Hopefully everything will go as planned for me !

Really excited about that...☻

Gonna start my new school year on April though!

2014..

My SPM results are like so close to me right now, 

I'm worried, honestly!

I've never thought achieving my goals in the academic realm was THIS important to me.

Maybe 'cause all the pep talks and motivation camps say this:

SPM is like your future, get it wrong and screw your future FOREVER!

-.-

Motivating indeed.

So...

I think that's all ,

Bye 2013 =)

Sunday, December 22, 2013

The Principle of Equiality

If you cannot accomplish something that you've requested for a person to accomplish,
Then, you have no right to make that request.

Pathetic, ignorant, retarded, fools.

You'd all expect me to do something that I dare not imagine.

Opening up they say, pfft.

Then why don't you people try it hmm?

You people have never gotten rejected straight,

Or being told that you're not worthy to exist in this world,

Or have you very dignity and pride shattered before your very eyes.

So, you have no right to judge or tell me how I should open up.

Whatever pretty words your mouths continue to spout on and on about "opening up",

I'm certainly not taking it.

You'd think that after all this rejection by people, I'd still trust people with my heart?

First of all, why should I even open up?

For me to get insulted again?

For me to get rejected again?

For me to get hurt again?

For me to experience pain again?

For my pride and dignity to be assaulted again?

For me to experience the black black despair of my past again?

Or...

Does it amuse you people to see me living a miserable life.

I did give your advises a thought.

But...

I think it makes no sense.

Plain rubbish.

You people don't know what's it like to be me.

So please shut up and seal your mouths on the comments regarding my "opening up".

Secondly,

Do you people realize something?

Oh right, I'M NOT LIKE YOU PEOPLE!

People like me do not have the right to open up to people, if you've already noticed.

The more I try, the more miserable my life gets.

You people have at least a 10% chance of surviving in the midst of people,

But what about me?

I can't even get the 1% of attention that I'm begging for right now!

If you people haven't noticed and are wanting to correct me after you see this,

Please note that the world is a very REALISTIC place,

Definitely not a place for the likes of me.

So you highly chanced people should realize this:

People like me don't really belong in a society like this.

So, if you have yet to experience what I have,

Please shut up and stop trying to get me to make ANY freaking changes on my attitude.

It may bring me many disadvantages but,

That's how I plan to live as.

A person who can overcome everything despite the disadvantages of his/her environment.

Even if I have to drag my legs along,

Even if I have to sit up and lick my open wounds,

Even if my heart gets torn into many little pieces,

I will find a way to keep moving.

I'll lick my own wounds,

I'll drag my scarred feet along,

I sew my heart back together, bit by bit.

Whether I stand or fall, I go it alone.

I really dislike teamwork or any other form of collaboration with others.

If there is no actual need for it, then I will do my best to avoid it.

I like doing work/things solo, especially jobs/assignments given to me.

Being a team player is not my forte.

It really pleases me to see everyone communicating with each other but...

At the same time, pains me as well.

Because...

I'm the only one whose getting ignored and left all alone.

So, it makes no difference being in a team or doing it all by myself.

Because at the end of the day, the only one who will be at my back will be just me.

The only person who will help me up when I fall,

The only person who will help me mend my wounds,

The only person who will keep my heart in one piece,

Is just me, and me alone.

No one is going to catch me when I fall...

I'm was/always the last one picked for anything...

Was and always will be.

But, Im really hoping to change that freaking statement,

Not by opening the heart, but by using tactics and planning.

And oh,

I don't smile when there's no reason to smile.

It's annoying and fake at the same time.

Accept me for who I am or just disappear from my life.




Wednesday, December 18, 2013

Fun Loving and Counting!

每当我回来更新的时候,

我总是有着一副“口水多过茶”的原则所在。

这一次,

是关于我亲爱的shopping!

我有多久没有潇洒的把钱拿出来买一套自己喜欢的服装了?

我又有多久没有对着一对自己很喜欢很喜欢的鞋子发呆了?

这一次,

我一定要狠下心,把你们统统买回来!

No pain no gain right?

我并不是什么千金小姐,

也不是什么挥霍无穷的拜金女。

我只是比较喜欢把自己觉得美丽的衣物送给自己而已。

对我而言,

发型还有装扮是一个人外在的包装。

包装得不好看,有谁会买呀?

所以,这一次,

我会“斩”!

要上大学了,必须有些许的改变。

除此之外,我还在很努力的学习日语。

日语对我来说是一个很文雅,很适合我的学习范围的语文。

它不会太难掌握,也不会有那么多复杂的笔画。

我还在学习如何当个出得了厅堂,进得了厨房的 young lady。

是时候学习一些基本的厨艺了。

我也即将去听人生中第一堂 undang class。

要考车牌了,好兴奋!

我也会去参加我人生中第一次的 Comic Fiesta!

我很想去看看慢慢都是 cos-player 的礼堂到底是怎样的。

这个 December 真的让我非常地感恩自己的一切一切。

冬至,圣诞节。

它们都快要来临了。

又老了一年,言行举止也必须成熟起来了。

不可以在像现在那样刁蛮任性,

也不可以那么轻易的把情绪写在脸上了。

社会的人性很多,

我不知道我会遇上什么样的人,

也不知道他们会带给我一个怎样的经验,体会,教训。

我只能默默地希望一切能够像我所想象的那样顺利,温和,平淡。

曾经,

我每天都希望过着像彩虹般灿烂,精彩的生活。

现在我才发现,

原来淡定,平凡的生活也是一种美好的享受。

我不介意不精彩的生活,也不介意精彩的生活。

只要一切在于适合的平衡线,那就足够了。

也许,

平淡能让我学习如何融入社会还有接受不同的观点吧?

我想,这应该是一种深层的体会。

抛开自己那副小屁孩的脾气,迎接一个全新的自己。

明年就 18 years old 了,该懂得成熟。

希望未来会更加的美好,灿烂。


Self-created quote of the day:

Beauty does not last forever. It fades with time and so does the many interesting occurrences in life.
Appreciate what you have and ALWAYS put a smile on your face 

-Carmen Chong- 






Wednesday, December 11, 2013

Blog Post之废话篇

我又回来了!

这一次我又会写些什么呢?

嘿嘿。

这一次就是在2013年结束之前我想对各位说的话啦!

我的小小blog也披上了新衣,我的写作当然也要啦~

我不再拖延各位的时间,

我开始la!

这一次是我发表感言的一篇文章噢!

开始吧!

Yit Mun, 月敏
首先,当然是要说谢谢lah!老实说,我并不了解你。
我也不之道你到底是个怎样生活的人。
可是,我们就这样相处了大概5年。
为什么是大概5年呢?
因为,
我了解你的程度并不多。
在我们5个人里面,
我觉得我和你算是OK的gua。。。
我还不知道到底有没有我想象中的好。
Erm。。。说到这里,我还是不大清楚要怎么接下去写。
可是,
我还是会继续写下去。
我们即将面临选择的关头,也不知道会不会一直联络下去。
至于你的感情世界呢,你还是超级无敌幸福的!
我在这里说:
经营一段感情是需要很多很多的毅力还有耐力。
因为,
你必须包容你另一半的优点还有缺点。
我只能在这里祝福你,
一直那样幸福下去。
也但愿你生活充满幸福。

Wei Yee,慧仪
认识你算是有了10年的时间吧?
我觉得认识了你那么长的一段时间,我始终未看见你真正的一面。
在我们面前,
你总是嘻嘻哈哈的,
有时候,我还真的担心你ah。
你很乐观,天真。
也许是因为这份乐观你才能够天天一笑而过。
这一点,我是非常佩服还有羡慕你的。
因为我没办法像你那样,
你可以算是我蛮羡慕的一个人吧?
还有哦!
你以后一定要记得联络,不要一直玩game了lah!
多多去体验一下生活,改造自己!
明年就要上大学了,
要会自己打扮,自己争取,自己努力!
我也要努力lah!
嘿嘿!
我看到未来的interior designer了oh!
还有,
我到现在都不知道你到底有没有交往hor?
有没有?!
如果有,那我就祝福你:
一直幸福下去。
没有的话。。。
就看看以后一起出门的时候有谁和你讨电话号码loh~
祝你:一路成功!

Pei Chee,蓓琪
今年是我认识你第七年了。
7年,说长也不长,短也不短。
以前呐,我总是认为你这个人很不好相处。
可是如今,你却成为了一位算是蛮了解我的朋友之一了。
朋友之中,我和你的想法,可说是类似的。
虽然途中会有摩擦,还有不顺,
但我们并没有因此而把感情影响了。
所以阿,谢谢咯!
我一生人中,有个算得上是半个知己的朋友已经算很好了。
半个是因为。。。
人不可能100%的了解彼此嘛,对不对?
你向往自由自在的生活,
你不喜欢被他人约束,
可是,有时候我们是必须放下自己的自由来配合他人的。
你的感情经历我也知道。
一路走来不容易。
我只能说:
未来有更好的一个人在等你,不必灰心。
现在,你就照着你喜欢的方式过生活吧!
你在未来一定会遇见属于你的那一个他。
未来的他,一定会有能你让你幸福,
未来的他,不会让你失望,
也不会让你伤心难过。
我祝福你能够遇见一个让你幸福百般的一个他。
那天没能出席你的生日庆祝会,paiseh阿,所以现在。。。
你的这一篇我就写的特别长!
慢慢地看!
最后,
祝你生活里充满着美好的事物!

Hui Jiun,慧君
在我眼里,你总是那个成绩榜上有名的那一位。
同学们都绕着你。
这一点我可说是非常羡慕的。
有时候,
我会觉得我并不存在。
大家看到的都没有我,我容不入我的环境。
可是,我慢慢地看到其实情形没有我想象中的糟糕。
可是你的成绩真的很好loh!
说了解,我可以说是不太了解你。
你也很少和我们share你生活里的点点滴滴。
或许是你比较喜欢把自己的私生活保密吧?
我也很少看你生气啊,emo阿什么什么的,可能是我没注意。
认识了你5年,
我觉得你是一位对生活还有责任非常认真地一位女生。
可是,有时候你太认真你就输了。
学会如何放松自己吧!
生活里,还有很多很多的东西等着你去体验呢!
我不知道要些什么了,
所以。。。
我就停在这里了!
以后若有感情的发展,记得。。。
慢慢地去经营!
和谐,和谐!

最后,

我还是想说:

不管未来把你抛到哪里,

不管以后的路有多么的辛苦,尖酸,

都要勇敢的去克服。

我们已经不能够像以前那样,任性,天真。

是时候长大了。

不可以再说我不想长大了。

上了大学,算是出社会的一步。

面对的人,事,物都不再一样,要好好地适应。

能够认识各位算是一种缘分还有一种安排。

我不知道我们还会联络多久,

也不知道这段友谊能够维持的多久。

我只能说:

船到桥头自然直。

我,写完了!

Happy Reading!! Bye Bye =P





Random-ness

 从前,

单身是一件我特别厌倦,讨厌的事情。

当我看着一对一对的情侣手牵手,幸福的在街上走着,

我感到特别的羡慕,特别的寂寞。

以前我总是任性的追求着自己的理想,自己的坚持。

现在,我学会了如何慢慢地和别人沟通,相处。

可是,我单身的事实还未改变。

对于另一半的要求呢,则是一臣不变。

我对另一半可说是非常的挑剔,

也许这只是自己过于强求。

但是,我觉得人总不能没有要求。

没有要求就不会有进步,对不对?

我理想中的情人都必须符合我的要求,若没有,那我也没办法。

我对自己更是需要挑剔了。

想要得到好的东西就必定要让自己更好,更优秀。

现在的我,还不够好,不够优秀。

但是,

我一定会努力让未来的我比现在的我更加的优越。

现在,

我还不能给与未来的另一半什么希望,

我只想说:

拜托你,等等我。

我会让自己优秀起来,坚强起来,让未来的你看到更好的我。

在未来,

我不知道会遇见一个怎样的他,

我也不知道我的感情会不会就像以前那样的短暂。

我只知道,我现在必须让自己进步,优秀。

为了未来,我会好好的努力,好好的进步,好好的让自己变得优秀。

未来的你,看见了吗?

我希望未来的另一半会在我跌倒的时候扶我一把,

在我伤心懊恼的时候把肩膀奉献出来,让我靠着。

在我感到无助的时候,伸出手,让我知道你会挺我。

在我处于逆境时,第一个出来帮助我的会是你。

在我闹脾气,任性,刁蛮的时候包容我,奉劝我,轻轻地责备我。

我想要未来的你给的并不多,

我想要一份安全感,

幸福感,

还有依赖感。

我想让未来的你知道,

我不是人人人为的铁娘子,我也只是个很普通的女生。

我也只不过是刀子嘴,豆腐心。

我也只不过是外冷内热。

但你必须知道,

我不会轻易表达自己的爱意或者是我的关心。

未来的你,必须了解,我并不相信一见钟情,也不相信天长地久。

你必须让我有相信你的勇气,

你也必须有一种让我孤注一掷的能力。

我,已经很久很久没有把一切赌在一个人的身上了。

所以,未来的你,请你对我好一些。

未来的你,会等我的,对吗?

我知道,我一定会等到未来的你来遇见未来的我。

我等你。

Tuesday, December 3, 2013

3 Years f Middle School, 2 Years of High school, Officially Ended.

Five Years as a Secondary School Student,

ENDED.

If I had to sum up everything is just one go,

I would say I can't.

Well, it has been a blast being a school student.

I can't really say that my experience was the best but,

It certainly has been the nicest one I've been through.

Suddenly I'm running out of ideas =P

Well, 

My next target is to SHOP SHOP SHOP!!

Well, the next stop is to complete my duties as the Graduation Dinner organizer!

Along with my planning team mates!

WOHOO!!

First ever graduation dinner!

PUMPED AND EXCITED!!

Weeeeh!