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Monday, October 31, 2011

Am I Really Dead Meat?

I think this case is serious o.O

I maybe falling for someone's BF...

Nope~

But...

I think that guy kinda likes me o.O

So is this good luck or bad luck?

Erm...

I don't know o.O

Argh!

I'm out of this xP

What falls into place then it is it!

Everything comes naturally xD

Friday, October 28, 2011

I'm Never Good Enough For You!!

No matter what I do,

I can NEVER achieve your target!!

No matter how good I am,

You throw it down like thrash!!!

Who do you think I am??

A normal person?

Or a robot who follows your every wish???

I'm not perfect!!

People make mistakes sometimes!

But you!

You mocked me like I'm shit!!

You slapped my confidence from level 5 till level 0!!

Do you know what you have done??

I don't need your mocking!!!

Since I'm so worthless,

Call your son to get OUTSTANDING RESULTS!!

Call your son to get everything you put on me!!

I don't exsist for you to mock me and step on me like a DOG!!!

I'm not a dog,

I'm a HUMAN!!!

I cannot take your mockery blow by blow everytime!!

Everytime you do this to me,

I cry till my eyes are red and swollen!!

You never know ANYTHING about me!!

I may not be perfect,

But I'm trying to!!!

I can't take this anymore!!

One day I'm going to lose my mind if this goes on!!

I don't fight back because I take you as family!!

Don't treat me like I'm a robot...

Please...

Who Do I Love In MapleStory?

Sienz nia o.O

Haih =...=

Who do you love in MapleStory o.O

The truth is I don't know o.O

I don't know how am I supposed to answer that o.O

And I really should get some courage out of nowhere o.O

Maybe I should xP

I have many friends,

But 0% of love as in BF GF love.

So bad o.O

Never mind that =3=

I'm not sure of myself yet xD

But what do they say?

Brothers till the very end =)

Yeah!

Maybe it should stay that way!

Brothers Forever guys xD

Haha!

If it's love I have no clue AT ALL xD

All I can say is that...

We're brother's forever xP

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Not Letting This Slip...Again!

I'm never letting go of this matter this easily now!

I cannot ignore the fact that you ignored my exsistance!

I'm not a toy to play with!

Don't you know anything??

I'm just not very happy with this!

I am just a normal person!

I too need a shoulder to lean on sometimes =)

Whatever =....=

I'm tired,

And you should be too!

Haih =....=

Bye anyway!

Best Halloween Party xP

Yeah!

Yesterday was the BEST Halloween Party...

EVER!!

Wohoo!!

Ech hem!

When I got there,

Some portion of the food was already missing o.O

Never mind that xP

Ate and ate and ate...

Truth or Dare game x3

Yeah!

Got the dare to do an ugly face =....=

LOL!

Like it's hard xP

I'm an EXPERT at this man!

Skip skip________

Treasure Hunt!

OMG!

Hardest event EVER!

But it was fun!

Ghost movie time....

Shocked but laughed xP

People shout when they're scared but me...

I laughed xD

Weird right?

Hehe xP

Thailand ghost movie...

Huuuh!!

Nice movie and special effects though =)

Loved it xP

Worth scaring for xP

Best Halloween Party Ever!

Monday, October 24, 2011

Bye Bye!

Wuseh!

Finally I can say bye bye to someone!

Bye after 3 years is a little late,

But at least I did it =)

I won't need to confuse myself anymore.

Between like and love,

I don't have either of them =)

Yays!!

I'm free to focus on more important stuff like...

My Maple level!!

116 already!

4 more levels to go to 120!!

I will do my best!

Chiong Ah!!!

Sot Pluk Kia =~=

Excuse me,

I don't think you should tell me about that matter!

Your BF is your BF!

And who in the world gave you my number???

I'm not a love counselor!

Find your own counselor!

Geez!

Just let me live my SINGLE life in peace will you?

I'm not in between your love life ==

So will you just leave me ALONE?

Goodness!

Girl's gotta have some peace here!

Geez!

I can't take this forever you know?

One day you must learn to handle your BF!

I know he's a little weird+not serious!

But it doesn't mean that he's gonna cheat on you!

If you don't trust your BF,

Nobody will!

So be calm and wait please!

And...

Stop calling me ok =....=

Gimme a break =....=

TQ!

Sunday, October 23, 2011

I'm Not Lc Please!!!

I know sometimes my attitude is VERY BAD,

But that doesn't mean that I'm LC!!!

Please,

I just wanna play my Maple in PEACE!

Calling people to CC is just so that I can complete the event!

And if 1 person dominates 1 map,

Their quests can be completed faster!

I'm not selfish!!

U can split the map,

But it doesn't mean that you can take advantage of that!

Since you already finished the quest,

Can't you let me have some time to finish the quest??

And then you tell me:

You are too LC, so I KS you!

What the =.....=

I'm not LC!

I will say it 1 more time!

I'm not LC!!

Don't think that any of you know who I really am!

I had a bad mood in the morning,

You came and made it WORSE!

I'm not as LC as you think!

Maybe you're higher level than me,

But you cannot say that I'm LC!

I'm HOT TEMPERED, not LC!

Remember this!

I'm hot tempered but not LC!

There's a big difference between those two!

Peace Out!

Dinner At Seoul Garden xP

Yeah!!

Ate Korean food at Seoul Garden yesterday =P

The food was A LOT!!

2 sets of appetizers consisting of 9 different types of food were served o.O

OMG!!

How can I not be happy?

Then the main course came....

Kimchi soup was first xP

Eventhough it was hot,

But it really tempted me to eat it xD

Ohh~~

Next was the Ginseng Chicken Soup!

OMG!!

The chicken and glutinous rice practically melted in my mouth!!!

Yummy to the max!!!

Then came the Korean Pancake...

OMG!!

The outside was crispy,

The inside was soft and just right =)

I love the outer crust of that pancake x3

And the marinated pork and chicken came!

Those were delicious as well!

And then...grilled pork!!

The juices sprayed out a little bit xP

Not exaggerating here xD

Overall,

Everything was AWESOME!!!

I hope to eat again there someday x3

Korean Food Rocks Big Time ^^v

Friday, October 21, 2011

Enough Please =....=

I'm very tired of listening to you and your girlfriend!

Please!

I don't have a boyfriend to brag about,

So you shouldn't brag about your girlfriend as well!

Gimme some respect here!

Goodness!

When can a girl have some peace in her ears?

I listen to you because I still think of you as a friend!

Now I don't know what to do anymore!

Ignore you or just tell you:

Stop telling me about her!

Because I wanna hear you talk about me!

Should I say that?

I don't know.

Or should I just say:

I don't want her to be your girlfriend,

Because I wanna be your girlfriend!

LOL!!

I don't know what to do yet =....=

Let me think about it 1st!

Peace Out for now xP

I Don't Wanna Hear About Your Girlfriend =....=

Hey!!

Give me some respect please!!

Don't rub your girlfriend's beauty or what so ever in my face!

I know she's a hundred times better than me!

But don't brag about it!

Don't you know how I feel??

Ugh!

I know I'm violent and all,

But it's who I am!

I'm not the nice and graceful type like your girlfriend!

If you wanna brag,

Brag somewhere else!

Just not in my face!

I can't even get through any of you cause of the bragging!!

I cannot afford to lose anything else!

Shut up if you wanna anger me!

Goodness!

What I wanted to tell you went back down =....=

All that came up was how much I wanted to hit you =....=

All the nice things that I've never said to people,

Gone down the drain =....=

Haish =....=

I cannot tell you how I feel,
Because of the wall in front of me.
I simply cannot accept the fact that....
I miss you so ='(

I cannot afford to tell you these!

Because I don't know how!

I cannot blurt out these things!

And I'm not the brave type!

Goodness =....=

If you must know...
I hold the secrets deep inside,
Afraid that you might know...
How I really feel ='(

6H Gathering Rocks!!!

Yeahh!!!

6H gathering rocks AWESOMELY!!

I think it's the best day since form 1 gathering =P

Eventhough there were a few LCLY people around,

It was fun to the max =P

I had fun with some of the old classmates =)

29th of October gathering...

Anyone going?

Not sure yet =P

Skip________________

Making Yit Mun+Micheal Lee's life interesting project...

Success!!

Ahaha!!

Interesting anyways =P

Nice all over+nice gathering xD

Love today~~

I believe that Halloween will be better xP

Yeah!!

Thursday, October 20, 2011

LOL!!! Again =...=

Hello mister,

Why keep aiming Chinese girls only =...=

I'm very curious! LOL!!!

What is wrong with being a Chinese?

You are so weird mister!

Goodness =.....=

The makeup talk was like rubbish!

It made a girl into a MAN!!

Boring~~~

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Love Lambo's Song+Akashi ><'''

Kyuuuu!!!!

Akashi and Lambo's Song!!!

Akashi is like EXTREMELY nice!!

Lambo's Song is SOOOOOO cute!!

Makes me wanna laugh and forget the stress =)

These two songs are the BEST [so far]

Haha!!

I love these T^T

Gogo Japan Anime!!!

I will FOREVER be with you guys =)

LUV it SO SO SO SO much x3

Kyuu!!!

Weird Day o.O

Ech hem!!

Stop aiming us please =....=

Just because we're Chinese,

Doesn't mean that we don't understand Malay language!!

Stop speaking to us like we're people who DON'T understand the language =....=

The feeling YOU gave me is....

Looking down on CHINESE'S Malay language mastery!!

Shut up if you don't know anything!

Goodness =....=

Asking those questions about KARANGKRAF =....=

Who knows?

Goodness =....=

Not EVERYTHING related to Chinese things are known by ALL Chinese =....=

So please...respect us a little here.

Skip all this__________________

Detective Time =D

Yeah!!

Mystery Of The Locked Toilet....

Da Da Da Dum!!

From morning till noon...

The mysterious door of the toilet remained locked...

Until our INVESTIGATION TEAM broke in xD

Yit Mun kicked the door xD

At last...

The answer to the mystery was...

Maybe someone closed the door too hard xD

But,

I think it's not that simple =P

It's a MYSTERY ....

Hoho!

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Everyday It's The Same =....=

Is my life going to end without any meaning?

Or is it just a beginning towards a better future?

Dammit =.....=

I don't want any continous, uncontrolable crying anymore!!

Yeah!

I cried in the movie room?

So what?

I cried again at home?

So what?

I just cannot stand my life anymore!!!

Lifeless after PMR =....=

I just want a MEANINGFUL life!!

Dammit!!

Why does this has to end this way?

I even have to hug my pillow tightly when I'm crying!!

Argh =....=

I hate my life sometimes!!

I don't know how to control emotions,

And I don't care to!

I'm not changing for those who DON'T APPRECIATE me!!

Peace Out!!

PS:Not reffering to anybody in this term

Monday, October 17, 2011

Dammit =....=

Dammit!

Why do you have to intercept my life in the first place?

Ugh!

You are such a pathetic person =....=

I'm not giving in though!

I will still hold on even if you interfere!

Hmph!

So get out if you hate me!

I will still shine bright even if you put out my flames of courage!

I will always be the shining star in the skies,

You can only be the people admiring those stars!

I will show you that I'm 100 times better than you!

I can achieve what you fail to accomplish!

I can douse your pathetic flames of arrogance!

I can overcome you!

I will no longer live in your shadow!

So move aside!

I'm coming through!!

Peace Out =3=V

Would It Be Better If I Don't Have Friends?

If I don't have friends,

My life would be empty?

Nonsense =....=

Who says a girl needs friends to survive?

Nonsense!!

I can live on my own without friends!

Screw those who say a person cannot live without friends!

Friends are just temporary entertainment!

It will disappear once they are through with you!

It's all the same EVERYWHERE!!

When in times of their needs,

They call you for help,

And when you need help,

They avoid you!

Damn them!!

Can I hate any of you?

Yes!!

I don't need a permit to hate!!

I'd wish for my friend-less life back if I can!

I want my old life back T^T

I don't want my life now!!

I'm surrounded by jerks!

Jerks who are just too busy to notice what I need!

Or should I say jerks who don't even care about me?

Bug off if that's the way it is!

I hate fakers!

Fakers get out of my life!

I would be happier without my friends anyway!

I can live alone!

Peace Out!!

Sunday, October 16, 2011

Halloween Party =)

Kyuuu!!!

I cannot wait for Halloween to come =)

I have the "sure win" set of costume xD

Are you ready guys?

Hehe~~~

I sacrifice a lot if I'm wearing that xD

Kyuuu!!!!

Halloween =)

Let's decide at Halloween =)

Bleks =P

Back From Dinner =)

Just came back from my dinner =)

The dinner was ok but the chicken was....

TOTALLY SMALL xD

Feels like getting scamed xD

But at last...

It was known as "kampung" chicken =.....=

NOOB =...=

Total cost of dinner was...

RM 138.30 o.O

OMG....

Expensive =....=

Noob =....=

I got my supplies for Halloween Party at Pei Fong's house =)

How bout you guys?

Hui Jiun,Wei Yee,Yit Mun,Pei Chee,Alleyna?

Ready yet??

xD

Saturday, October 15, 2011

Damn You ='(

Damn you ='(

Why are you walking into my life like that?

Dammit you!!

Can't I just open my eyes and face a day without you??

Dammit!!!

I hate it when this happens!!

I know clearly that me and you are impossible,

But still...

I want to complete the impossible!!

Dammit =...=

Friday, October 14, 2011

I Can Do It!!

现在的幸福,
都要靠我自己去寻找了,
不是吗?

你无法再度给我我想要的幸福,
我也无法再度要求你从新包容我,
我只能够看着你走。

我也不知道该如何告诉自己,
你已经走了,
再也不会回头看。

或许说我很会欺骗自己,
又或者我很不想要接受事实,
你说过的,我很难忘记。

你给我的,
我很难退还,
也许这就是我和你的差别。

我不是痴情,
而是很够力痴情,
我很难忘记你给我的幸福。

但是,
我还是得忘记你的一切,
旧的不去,新的不来。

我会好好的忘记你的!
Just you wait and see!!
I can do it!!!

Huat Arh!!

Thursday, October 13, 2011

I Am Carmen Chong =)

I am Carmen Chong!!!

Do you have a problem with that?

If you do then please get out of my life =)

I don't need some judge to tell me what to do.

I can and I will walk my own way =)

我的生活,

由我来主宰。

谁也不可以改变我的原则。

这个就是我,

张嘉敏!

怎么样?

What problem do you have?

If you do,

Get out!

Smile, peace out!



Smile Can Overcome Cries =')


I've learnt the art of smiling =)

Smiling can truly lighten the heart of a person =]

Smiling is a good thing.

Let My Picture Tell My Story =)




没有你,
我也可以笑得很灿烂,
我也可以获得比以前快了许多。

笑一笑吧 =)




I'm Not A Playgirl!!

Hey you!

I'm not a playgirl ok???

Stop saying that I am!!

I'm just afraid of not having someone to be there when I cry!!

I cannot trust love anymore,

And most of all...

I'm afraid of getting hurt over and over again!

Ugh =....=

How can you understand?

You're not even me!

Whatever =.....=

Enough of this rubbish!

I only wanted a person who could hear me complaint,

A person who could understand what I really need.

But that isn't going to come true now.

Just enjoy my life as a so called playgirl.

Peace Out ==V

If I Work Hard Enough, Can I Cover Up The Pain?

If I work hard enough,

Can I cover up the pain that I've been trying to hide?

U called and said you're happy with her,

But I feel regret swirling in my heart.

I don't know why?

I was supposed to stand up and walk away after you left.

But all it did was just making me miss you more.

This just doesn't make sense!

I was supposed to forget about you and lead a new life!

What in the world is wrong with me??!!

Could I just be missing the feeling that you gave me?

Or is it just my imagination?

I couldn't forget after all =')

It's never easy to let someone go like that =')

Not after what I've done =')

But...

It's time to let go.

I will one day,

And I knew that this was going to come.

I knew it all along =')

It was never meant to be mine =')

I knew it all the time =')

Now I just try and forget those things =)

Being with friends are just awesome =)

Thanks for being with me =)

I could have never went through without the fun and laughter you guys gave =')

FRIENDS ARE FOREVER,

NOTHING CAN BREAK THAT BONDING,

BETWEEN A PERSON AND HER FRIENDS.

[Carmen Chong]


FriendShip ForEver!!!

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Shorty+Basketball....OMG...

OMG...

Now I know how difficult it is to actually play basketball,

As a shorty!

It was hard to even steal the ball xD

And most of all...

We were playing against BOYS!!!

=......=

Unfair!!!

Ugh!!

I'm only 157 and you guys are like...

Maybe 170?

Hey!!!

13cm gap between the height ok!!

OMG....

Stunned o.O

But it was also fun at the same time =)

I hope to do it again sometime xD

Remember guys,

One day I will steal the basketball from all of you!!

Huah huah huah!!!!


Tuesday, October 11, 2011

Never Let Go =)

Hey!

Don't ever let go of what you love =)

Even if the pain and tears of holding on crush you,

Never let go =)

You'll reget it if you let go =)

We may say if we let go of somethings,

We'll feel better.

But it's not like that =)

Letting a person go is harder than meeting a person =)

Lifting up a burden is harder than putting it down =)

Yet,

I let my hands go off the things I love =')

Ironic =)

Maybe because I know it will always be there no matter what =)

Or just maybe...

I just feel better letting it go =)

I cannot define love with words or songs,

But I know how to let things go =)

It's a cycle of life!

I cannot hold on to the past all the time.

Maybe it's time I stepped out of the dark =)

See the light =)

LIGHT MY LIFE UP =)

Peace Out!

Yoru No Hate-Nico Touches The Walls

Why do you insist that you're not sad?

You're hiding it; Though you spit out your uncouth loneliness, the tears don't come


If this world were to disappear without a sound tomorrow

You would still just be standing up like that


It doesn't look like that sort of thing will do anything about it

I wish I could give some color to the dark night

The sun being rude, just setting far beyond time


I'm living my life without any great reason

It's no wonder that even if we take up the beautiful night sky

Its complexion will not change at all


A regular old star on a regular old street corner

One day you won't be there anymore


If you don't try to see anything at all like that

You might as well wipe it out with your own hands

Tonight I can see you overlapping with stars in the night sky


Blooming and withering, everything is a sign

Soaring in the wind, confusing scenery


I got so scared that I was happy, sad or whatever

I'm taking in the stars of the cruel night sky and trembling

The light that calls out beyond this kind of darkness

Who's grasping a hold of it?

Come for me one day, to the end of the night

To where I am

To where I am


Mayokana No Orchestra-Aqua Timez

The song of midnight shouted out, and ever since then…


The tracks of red, fading twilight
The stars sit on the sky
Every sound was played
Even if I’m not told to be honest, the tears take my thoughts along
A small sea formed at my feet


The sky doesn’t move; the sun just rises and falls

The ground doesn’t move; it’s up to you to walk or not


The song of midnight shouted out
The truth is, I hate being alone

I’ve known what is important ever since that day


A small spoon is enough to scoop out happiness

There’s just the question of if there are people to share it with


The days I pretended to be strong come back to me
It’s like showing my heart glasswork, a fleeting dream
Throwing purity around is scary

We’ve all pretended we’ve had it at one point in this opaque world we live in


I walked, dragging a heavy freedom along

When the farewell came, it looked like the sky was leaving


The rain of goodbye muttered, and my umbrella was open

And now opened kindness will always be in my chest


I haven’t given up on the hope that we will meet again

I made a promise to the people who sleep with stardust in their beds


There was nobody there for the boy who sat down in a city without seasons*

But despite that…


Cold children that look up at the stars…

The song of midnight shouted out

The truth is, I hate being alone, and not knowing whether you’ll keep on being alone


A small spoon is enough to scoop out happiness

There’s just the question of if people exist that can share it


The song of midnight is shouting out
Truth is, I was lonely
Even if it gets erased in the radiance of the sun


Should we wave the flag now?
Should we come together?
Should we just sing?
Anything is fine


There’s just the question of whether or not you’ll be here or not

Maybe I Can Try

Maybe I can try to conceal my true feelings,

But it can never work.

No matter how hard I try,

I just cannot render the sadness inside.

About living like this,

About being teased like this,

I simply cannot endure all this!

But I cannot give up,

Nor can I avoid life.

No matter how fast I try to run,

It will just catch up with me in a second.

I don't know why,

But it seems to have clung on to my body.

Holding on as hard as it can,

Not letting go =)

I can't admit that I'm actually an empty shell,

Just waiting for something to make me full.

Why can't the sadness just go away?

And why can't I tell someone how I feel?

I can't wish for tomorrow to disappear,

Nor can I wish for myself to disappear.

I cry during the night,

Hugging my pillow tight,

Letting my tears go out of control.

Facing the truth is just not my thing when it comes to a certain issue.

I'm just not who I am =')

Smiling everyday is just not enough!

有时候,

单凭伪装自己是不足够的。

I cannot imagine myself crying in front of others,

Secret of mine will be kept =')

Peace Out =')

My Life,My Style =)

Ohh yeah!!

My life, my style =P

Ah har!!

I can't have style if I can't keep fit T^T

OMG...

It's hard for me to resist the temptation of DELICIOUS food xP

Argh!

Somebody help me please!!!~~~

Chinese New Year is approaching!!

Excersise more!!!

Huah!! Huah!!!

Bumping+Sit ups!!

Yargh!!!

I can do it!!

Huat Ah!!!

Only Me =)

Hey!

If you dont like me,

Why bother looking at what I do?

You can just close you're eyes and ignore my every move,

But why didn't you?

Is it because of my attitude?

Or is it because of my words?

Never mind!

I know myself better than anyone else in my life!

I'm the ONLY one who can determine what I really want,

So...just leave me alone ok?

I'm very ok being a single girl =)

So I think that you should move on!

Find a new person =)

I'm always gonna be your MACHI!!


=) Smile

Monday, October 10, 2011

PMR Is OVER!!!!

Ohh yeah!!!

It's finally OVER!!

I can maybe sense 6/7A's in my hands already xD

Yeah!!!

Putting @cash in my Maple account,

But,

Why doesn't it show up???

Shit =......=

Whatever!

I can lodge a complaint afterwards xD

Anyways...

It's time for FUN and GAMES whole day xD

Yeah!!!

Since PMR is OFFICIALLY over,

I think I can sit back and relax for awhile =)

Go Go Relaxation =)

Love Ya!!

Sunday, October 9, 2011

Happines Is Easy,It Depends On How You Look At It

Hey!

Has anyone nearby said that they're not happy enough?

Wrong!

They are happy,

They just don't realise it until they lose it =)

So....

I think that happiness is a VERY simple thing =)

As long as you hold on to the basics of happiness,

You'll find the path that leads to HAPPINESS!

Friday, October 7, 2011

I Don't Need A Boyfriend To Be Happy =)

I don't need a boyfriend to be happy!!

I don't know why but this came up to me today =)

I saw various status about girls and their boyfriends today,

Ah....

Many are in love,

Correct?

Those who are in love tend to look....

Shiny and bright most of the time~

But,

I don't need a guy beside me to show me what happiness is!

I can show myself what happiness means!

I don't even need a guy to protect me!

That's because I can protect myself better than guys do!

I'm not a REGULAR,PLAIN girl!

I'm Carmen Chong!

Don't talk to me as if you know me very well.

Yeah, I broke up a few weeks maybe?

But that doesn't mean that you can assume that I need you!

I don't!

I gave you a chance and you threw it away,

Like my trust was garbage!

I will NEVER trust/forgive those who betrayed me!

I may look fine and act fine as if nothing happened,

But I'm not!

我不再需要你所谓的关怀!

你给过我的,我很谢谢你!

但是,

我无法原谅背叛我的人。

我的性格,你比谁都还要清楚!

所以,你过你的生活,我走我的路。

Anyway, thanks for your care.

If I ever need someone to listen to my complaints,

I'll call you =)

If I need a Boyfriend,

I think you have a chance xD

Peace Out!!

Thursday, October 6, 2011

Wah =.....= SienZ Ah =....=

Wakao!

Sienz man =......=

Revision also lazy to do,

Dammit =.....=

What to do?

Revision bah!

Haih~~

Why today don't continue with the PMR exams T^T

End it it 1 week T^T

Never mind!

I can have more time to study!!

PMR 7A's/6A's,

Here I come!!

Ulalala~~

I'm coming Nokia N9~~

Wait for me~~